Hug Him Once For Me

To my baby boy...

In less than 15 days the 21st of March will be here... I'm not sure how i'm going to react once its here. We were suppose to meet you on this day sweet baby, but you left us a few months before we expected you. I miss you everyday that goes by.. I still feel so empty and hurt. They say it gets a little better with time but i'm not sure how long it will take. I will NEVER forget you Ashlen, my love for you grows stronger and even though you are no longer with us you are present in our mind and in our hearts, we love you and miss you so much baby! Please watch over us little angel.

girls these days...

So I have noticed that more girls that I know are getting pregnant, I can't even log on to facebook without seeing them complain about being pregnant. They have no idea how lucky they are to still be pregnant! I would take all the pain the sickness and everything else that comes with pregnancy in a heartbeat if it meant I could keep my sweet baby. The most common thing I read on their posts is "I wish I wasn't pregnant anymore".... It makes me so sad to see this, it makes my heart ache. I wish I was pregnant I wouldn't care how much pain and discomfort I was in because at the end of it all it would be so worth it!

On my mind...

Its been a little over two weeks and I cant help but think more about my sweet Ashlen as each day passes. I keep having these dreams about a baby and each one is different but when I wake up I realize thats what it was just a dream... All day he has been on my mind and it brings tears to my eyes. I wish I could have fed him or changed him. I keep hearing about other women having babies or how far along they are, how many weeks are left, how their appointments went, Its hard. It feels like every girl I know is pregnant or has a baby. I can't help but get a little jealous I wish I could have my baby with me but he is with my Lord. He was taken from us too soon and only God knows why. We miss and love you baby boy! You will always remain in our hearts!